I’ve emailed my brother asking for funds to go back into therapy. He had offered some time back and I never took him up on it. Not sure I even acknowledged the offer. I hope it still does.
I’m consumed with rage at the moment. It comes and goes in split seconds but I’m afraid of it when it comes. I want to yell and scream and throw things at people. I don’t want to hurt anyone, or myself, but I want to cause damage. And then I cry. And cry. And cry some more.
I see my pyschiatrist tomorrow and will talk to her about it. Hopefully she’ll refer me to a therapist who can get me in before 2/18/09. And hopefully my family’s offer to help pay for it is still available to me.